my LOVE......???

As wat's on my title...it's really confusing me by the time now...once i feel lonely..it wasnt anyone chasing me...once i had bf...it's some chaser around me...by now...it's 5 include my bf...between my chaser...dear wasnt the best...many of them better than him...romantic than him...caring than him...
Y should i said tat???i should speak out all the goods on him wat...he is caring...always in the good emotion when wif me...respect on me...im always the best & the prettiest in his heart...im always the one who make all the decision...how good he treat me...but...how could i din feel sweet on it???it's long 4 me 2 think over it...wat's wrong between us...then only i realize tat the problem is i doesnt love him...the cause of me 2 accept him is he treat me good...wat i wan is not only tis...i dun like 2 make all the decision...i wan some soft argue when coupled...i wan my dear make some romantic when v dated but not frequent...i dun wan see "sorry" every morning when i wake up... i really not match wif him...but i scare 2 hurt him too...the taste of hurt wasnt good...
I feel tat im really a emotional gal...always change on the side of thinking...always action before think...it's my weakness..really a big mistake in my life...i feel so sorry 2 him...i hope 2 find a chance 2 have a talk wif him...but i really cant imagine wat will happen on next..............

MR.O??? MR.W???

These days...mr.o r keep on msg me...im still confusing whether should i believe on watever he said...mayb he really good on acting until i can fall in love with him(as again n again)...seriously...i feel very happy when he drop me a/more msg...can pretend as din receive it even not reply him...but wat am i suppose 2 do???he can easily grb my heart away...as my situation now...i feel tat my heart is going forwrd him...all sisters feel tat he is cheating me...scare im been hurt again...buti still love him...
Mr.w is my bf...feel sweet when i with him...he can do wat as i ask him 2 do...at here can say as "i can control him"..hehe...but i feel headache sometimes...coz i need 2 do all the decisions...where 2 go???wat 2 eat???wat do i like???all of it he always ask me...he is too soft...when im with him...i feel weird...v r same type of personality...actually im not really know him...im trying 2 ask...but the answer i get is "wat u said..wat i listen to"...it's how he answer me...
both of them confusing me...even mr.w is my bf...but i dun noe how im going 2 tell him...i scare he will been hurt...sometimes i ask myself...how could mr.w love me so much???even like tat...i still feel unsafety in our love...
Im helpless now...haizzz...or i need 2 take a rest 1st???

19th of August 2008

Maybe for others...it's just a normal date...but for me...it's really special...coz i had accepted him as my boy boy...i feel im lucky enough...coz i earn a gd man in my life...
Although he doesn't rich...dun hav car...not as tall as wat i set my target b4...but he has full of lovely...kindness...gentlemeness...caring...respectness...in his heart...i dun noe how long could v b...mayb juz a moment...but i really wish tat v can b as long as v can...he could b a perfect man in my heart...
Sometimes i really not too believe on wat he said...i scare 2 b hurt...he said i always said he is same as my ex...will not serious on our love...but sometimes i really cant control it..coz i always think tat all the guys r same...only ask for sex...even dun noe whether should i believe him..i noe tat every couple should trust their partner...but im weak on my confidence...i scare others will grab him away...i scare 2 b loser too...
I think i need times 2 prove it...
ok...florence+wah zai...gambateh lo...^.<