a DOWN DOWN day

2day my best sister suddenly ask me some question..."why u seen like untalkative on these days??" "why u dun like 2 talk wif her n look cool when talk wif her recently??"...
How could i answer the question???im shot by the time...until now...i still feel very embarress when i face her...couldnt imagine the image of wat she said 2 me b4 and the image of her & jolin...wan me 2 believe her...but she hurt me too...wat's the wrong actually???how do u wan me 2 face u after those of it happened...i couldnt make it without time...im a human...i need time on everything...even 2 4get it...plz giv me some time...and stand on my situation how could i been tat...
Mayb those incident not happen on u...so u cant touch the feel of it...most of u juz say tat it's easy 2 wrap away...honestly...until now...i still caring the moment when i having lunch wif the couple...but tat time i still act as nothing happen n dun care on her anymore....now...i tell u...it's hard...really hard...
Hope u all can giv me some time...i need 2 think over on wat im thinking...even wat did i wan...sisters...sorry 4 my changes recently...especially my attitude...become more cool n not 2 tell wat im doing n thinking.......